Passion

There is another show on tv that I have been enjoying.  It is Eric McCormick's new show, Perception.  I named this post Passion because we all need to find our passion in life, and the episode I just watched, from about a month ago, had a young man in it who was in college on a football scholarship.  When Eric McCormick's character (who is a college professor but also a schizophrenic - not multiple personality - with some very interesting hallucinations)... anyway, he figures out this kid in his class, who is in college on a football scholarship, has a head injury that keeps him from playing football anymore.  The kid goes back and plays in the next game and injures himself even more severely.  Dr. Pierce (McCormick) asks the kid, "Why would you do this to yourself??"  The kid says that ever since he was small, football has been his life.  Who is he if he can't play football anymore?

Now, I have to back up here.  One of Pierce's hallucinations this episode is a younger version of himself.  This younger version reminds Pierce of the plans and the dreams he had before being diagnosed with schizophrenia.  

Okay, so back to the kid, and the question he poses to Dr. Pierce.  Pierce does not let on to anyone he has schizophrenia because it is so misunderstood, and because he has a helper who keeps him kind of focused and on track so he doesn't lose himself in his hallucinations.  So what does he say to this kid?

He tells the kid that he had dreams and plans, and ended up in a hospital, too.  He thought his life was absolutely over.  The kid asked, "What did you do?"  The answer?  FIND NEW DREAMS.

Find your new passion, or reinvent an old one.  You might have noticed that the last post and this one both deal with new shows with a psychological twist.  My passion when I was going through elementary, junior high, senior high, and college was psychology.  I loved the theories and the whole world of different ideas about people... our motivations, our cycles of growth, our thought patterns... so much more.  I think watching these two shows, I may actually be rediscovering an old passion that I can grab hold to in order to make some order out of this world of mine which, for several years now, but especially since I have been on full disability, has been just a jumbled mass of lists and ideas and piles of barely started projects.  

I want to write a book on MS, and on knowing your own MS.  Psychology may just be the door I have been looking for...