I thought I would write more about how fatigue is a process. Too bad I am too tired to think of much to say. I used to work long hours, then come home and work on the house, the yard, whatever. Now, going to town (three miles away) seems too hard most days. I have the drive to move forward, to do more and contribute more to my life, but this MS fatigue is something you can't just "push through." I am used to just pushing through adversities.. I guess for me, one of the processes involved in this kind of fatigue is learning to allow myself to sit, to be quiet, to nap, and worst of all, learn to let things be.
Fatigue also effects my thinking and my speech. I forget where I put things, what I am supposed to do, and why I am in one room when I just had the purpose in mind. For others, this is something that happens. It is something that everyone can relate to, in their own way. "I hate it when I do that!" or "I know exactly how that feels!" are reactions I get. It's part of getting older, is another good theory. But with MS, it is different. It is more constant. The brain is in there, but the neurons just aren't connecting in the same way.
I am going to nap now. Maybe on my way I will remember I have to find a phone and make a phone call... maybe not.
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